For most, trust is something that is not easily given as well as taken back. Some may deserve it and there are those who don’t deserve it as well.
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Because of this event, I reflected all day. I wasn’t focused much on my exam because I was thinking of the things I have done the past days, months and even years. It came to a point that I’d shut my eyes and forget about it because it is the past. I don’t know why people bother about it. Tsk tsk.
“People will always judge whatever status in life you have.. No one can please everyone.” – Gem
I don’t care what other people say. It’s me and I’m not a fake.
In my new class, there is a certain group that I don’t talk to. I usually judge a person by how she interacts with other people – how she looks, talks, turns back at a person and even laugh. I can say when she’s real or not. (And erm, it’s a she because I don’t usually have any problem with boys.).
Anyway, I’m going back to what happened the other day. It was our NCM class and it was really boring. My buddies in class decided to cut class during our break. I stayed after the break cos I don’t usually get absent for a reason that I don’t trust other people’s notes haha! Our instructor checked our attendance before going home and everyone who was present had an additional 10 points for our CS. When it came to my buddies’ name, this certain girl shouted “abseeeent!” so loudly that she was being sarcastic. I was thinking about their issue and I just knew it was about a guy. Let’s name him “EGG”. Egg is liked by that sarcastic girl. But Egg talks to my friend more than her. Eversince, the sarcastic girl has been proclaiming damn things. And oh, have I mentioned that a friend of hers called a girl in their circle a monster? Yes. Being plastic.
I can’t tolerate these things. I know in time, I’m gonna be the f*ck-off-b*tch me again.
Ice cream called last night. I was having a severe headache and I guess it got worst when I was about to sleep. Here’s the thing: I understand him now. And I’m just glad that he realized his mistakes and gave me an explanation without asking for one. He admitted that he needed me (awwww) and he considers me as his best friend which I found amusing. Telling me he misses me and that he realized those times when we only met a few times in a month. Explaining his family issues with me (especially about his mom) made me think why he’s done such things before and I guess that... I’m his confidante. Yes, now I now he does need me and he’s troubled.
He was having a fever last night and I wanted to take good care of him. But like him, I was having my own issues – severe headache. So being a “student nurse” (haha), I asked for the drugs his doctor prescribed and told him the do’s and don’ts as well as things to do with his fever.
This morning, I don’t know if he’s fully recovered but he called again. It was a short talk because I was running late as usual. So after the call, I just sent a friendly-motherly message hahah.