Wednesday, July 16, 2008
"Behavior is the mirror in which everyone shows their image."- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Preserving relationships was one of the things she was good at. Never failing to remember, she always communicated with friends far and near. And then she earned a lot of trust and friendships as well as enemies.
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For most, trust is something that is not easily given as well as taken back. Some may deserve it and there are those who don’t deserve it as well.
I’ve never deleted this message in my inbox since this morning:
“Bale ang sabi niya: ‘aq nga din ncraan, d na nga kami nagki2ta cncraan pq..parang gn2.’
The message was sent by my friend studying at a different school. Coincidentally, she became classmates with Tina. (I don’t mind naming her.) The only thing I don’t get is why she has to tell my friend, Turtle Princess, about our past. That argument was already talked over and both sides agreed it was okay. And then I’d hear this from my friend? God. Please. What more can she say to other people then? Ah as for me, I found it irritating a while ago but I’m okay with it. I just told my friend that it’s up to her if she’ll believe Tina or not; she knows me and I’m confident about it. I have admitted my mistakes to them. But I don’t understand why certain issues have to be brought up yet.
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Because of this event, I reflected all day. I wasn’t focused much on my exam because I was thinking of the things I have done the past days, months and even years. It came to a point that I’d shut my eyes and forget about it because it is the past. I don’t know why people bother about it. Tsk tsk.
Anyway, as I’ve reflected, I realized that I wasn’t that bad (haha!). I had my share of acknowledgements and humiliations because of my behavior, not only to my family and friends but even to the people I interact with in the hospital. I’ve remembered these things because of a reaction paper for our Research subject. It doesn’t have any connection to the subject matter but I guess it was an evaluation tool for us in the clinical area. Being in the nursing profession is really something different. It changes a lot of things positively.
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“People will always judge whatever status in life you have.. No one can please everyone.” – Gem
