Friday, May 30, 2008
* Confused thought *
-Mikhail Bakunin
Lessons. Knowledge. Experiences. Life.
I believe man is hardly contented with what he has. And because of this discontentment, one is able to make and find ways of his own to satisfy it. I’m really amazed with a person’s ability to do it; it’s a way of coping I guess.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
* Excited! *
to cling to memories you'll never get back again;
And to sort through old photographs
Of a summer long ago
Or a friend that you used to know."
-Unknown-
So it's been a while since I've updated my blog. I've been busy with my life. I needed a break from everything. I went to La Union last Friday and wasn't able to visit the beach even though it was only a few meters away because we are required to be here in Baguio and start the practice for our Capping Ceremony.
The important thing is, we started practicing for our Capping Ceremony (the most important ceremony for Nurses) yesterday. I'm veerrrry excited to wear my uniform as well as my cap and pin. This is one special day I won't forget. The ceremony would be held on June 12, 2008 at the Easter College Gym; the time? I don't know. Although our instructors have been announcing that there are still people who wouldn't be able to join the Ceremony because they might have failed NCM 100. As for me, I'm confident that I really made it because I know I did my best and it showed in my midterm grade (as one of the priority listed students for the uniform). I'm not boasting though, but this is one improvement after I failed the quota.
Hmm, the songs for our ceremony aren't interesting. We're still searching for a tribute song for our parents. The choices were Salamat(what the?), Thanks to You(the kinder sang this), Do I make You Proud(the previous batch used this so we had to change it). So till now, there aren't interesting songs. Any suggestions please? I'm not musically inclined so there isn't much I know. Tsk.
As for today, my dad, Jameel (my brother) and I had our dinner at KFC. My diet.... My die-t. But anyway, it's fun pigging out once in a while. I really ate too much when we ordered a bucket meal hehe. To think we also had a Grande Zagu each. What I've learned after that? Eat moderately.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
* Dark Paths *
"We all need a haven, a sanctuary, a place to hide, a place to escape, a place to dream and hope, a place where the darkness won't seem so frightening. So it is written, so it shall come to pass. But for some, the darkness is a relentless enemy that cannot be eluded. And once the darkness senses your fear, once it senses your pain, it is never far behind..."
- Scott Levy, "Raven"
There are times when I thought of giving up, finally laying down all my dreams and hopes and wait for whatever may happen. It came to me that everyone experiences this. It isn’t everyday that we step into the light and rejoice. Sometimes or even for some, most of the time, we tend to trip over and finally fall down to our knees and breakdown. Everyone has to cross that path, not to suffer alone but to learn from it. Yes, we cry, we isolate ourselves from the world; we even tend to hurt ourselves and the people who care for us. It’s not being selfish but finding time to reflect on our own helps us somehow determine what we really need to do.
I sometimes wonder how some people cope with their fears and dreaded hopes. I've encountered some who would rant and cry all day without doing anything about it and there are those I'd see crying in a wholly manner and later on stands firmly. Although coping mechanisms vary from one person to another, one would always find the solution in himself. The people who care serves as a support for him to stand once again on his own and the rest will depend on the will of the person to move on and learn from the experience.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
* Soooo Cold! *
(Kawawang janitors, bahang baha ang 3rd floor, the escalator isn't even moving, we had to walk up!)
(I had to take the picture from a shop and zoomed it rather than standing in the middle and be blown away haha!)
(After playing at Quantum, we decided to take the elevator going down. The glass was wet because of the rain too! XD)
(Sa Atrium naman ito ng SM[sa loob pa rin]. As you can see, nakapayong na talaga kami at baha ang floor. Closed na rin ang ibang shop, mga 8pm pa lang ito, tsk!
(Nagsawa na kami. We decided to go home because it really was too cold! This was outside Pizza Hut's door. Sobrang lamig talaga tas ang lakas pa ng hangin nito. Pinakuha namin itong picture sa security guard. [Kawawa cam ko nito, basa pala kamay nung guard huhu].
May 17, 2008
We decided to have a break from school [before having our exams this week] so we met yesterday. It was really raining hard but we persisted in going to SM. At first it was only I, Aya and Franz who met and just texted Ian to come over. We ate at Mang Inasal for our snacks and proceeded to Quantum. We got crazy so we played until we spent and sweated enough. Franz saw my friends' ex and we took a video of him. Talk about playing detective. I'd show the video to my friend tomorrow hehe.
Hmm, after going to National Bookstore and SM Dept. Store, we headed to McDonald's for our dinner. It was then we noticed that the rain got stronger. There was even a temporary brown out for about a minute I guess.
And the hard part, when we went home. The taxi line was too long that the line reached the escalator! We knew we didn't stand a chance so we walked till Cathedral and waited for our rides there. Since Ian and Aya's boarding house was nearby, they walked home. As for Franz, she took the jitney and I stood there in the rain waiting for a darn taxi. If there was one place I'd be at that time, I'd prefer staying at the Post Office [close to Cathedral]. The umbrella was useless because my pants and shoes were soaked!! Luckily, God granted me a taxi in front of the Cathedral gate and the taxi driver even said that I was his last trip. I'm so blessed. So there, I reached home safely and from our place, you could've seen that half of Baguio has no lights. It was also scary last night because the wind could be heard howling and the roofs of our neighbors sounded that anytime, it would fly to our windows.
Ah.. Finally, the rain stopped tonight and there's electricity now. My Sunday was very boring. I had to sleep and lie all day. ;]]
Friday, May 16, 2008
* Insensitive but happy... *
Caption of the picture:It was taken in Tokyo Tokyo;
that's my favorite number kasi and that's his hand at the background.
We finally met after how many months again.
It was his birthday (May 15, 2008).
Paolo and I agreed to meet yesterday.
Nagsamba muna kami ng 6:30 P.M. It was my first time to enter Iglesia ni Cristo's temple(?).
We rode a jitney to SM and went to National Bookstore first.
(It felt awkward because the both of us were wearing formal clothes, especially him)
We then went to Tokyo Tokyo and had our dinner there.
It took us a while to talk and eat.
As we walked out,
Great! It was raining. We didn't have any umbrella (I forgot mine, I don't know where his was).
The taxi line was too long so we decided to walk until we reached the main gate of SLU.
Yes, we walked in the rain.
Haha, I don't know.
I felt happy acting like a mature kid.
We took some pictures and after a while,
we walked till New City (Piao Yan) Supermarket and
he was able to take a taxi for me (finally! haha).
So there.
I called to check on him when I arrived at home. Of course,
nasermonan nanaman ako.
But it was worth it.
P.S. About my recent post about cutting my connections with Paolo, forget it.
I can't and won't do it. =]]
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
* Duty thoughts fulfilled! *
Today was our last day of duty for NCM-100a.I felt so attached to my patient that I didn't want to leave her side the whole morning. Even though there was so much interventions to be done, I managed and did it leaving a feeling of comfort not only for me but also for my client.
When I arrived this morning, my client was wide awake and was already eating her breakfast. I received another solution again compared to yesterday (that I had to change with the assistance of a senior nurse). My patient is able to change from one position to another (which is a good improvement) and that her catheter was removed because of the progress notes I wrote (we were allowed to chart already =]) about her having a risk for infection.
I cleaned the area by sweeping the floor in the morning since the other patient's were done eating and we can't take their vital signs yet. I just remembered that a good and clean environment promotes faster recovery. Bed side care done. And I had to let her nebulize 3 doses of salbutamol aero-vent and the other I forgot haha.
Then 2P.M came. We had to go before 3 P.M (I was not able to carry out the order that I had to let my patient nebulize again since we were called for our clinical exam). But before the exam, we had to talk to our patient's that we were already leaving. My patient misunderstood me that I must be leaving for that day only but I will be leaving and a new nurse will be coming in tomorrow. She told me: "Gusto kitang maging nurse."
I was so touched that I almost hugged her. I wanted to cry. It was my first exposure and it was fulfilling to know that I have provided good nursing care for the past three days. I am so proud of myself! And when I explained that I won't be coming back again, her significant other told me that I should continue to give that kind of care and she thanked me for helping her in the work load.
This really is fulfilling for me. I'm looking forward for my next duty. =]
Monday, May 12, 2008
* My First Duty *
I was very excited this morning that I forgot to take my vitamins. Err.My first duty finally! My shift started at 7 A.M to 3:00 P.M.
We (my clinical instructor and group mates) met at the waiting shed of Baguio General Hospital at 6:15 A.M.
Ma'am Dulawan oriented us and we finally went to the "nurse's room".
We were assigned to the Female Medical Ward.
My first patient got discharged after we had our flag ceremony. (Grabe, I established rapport already then she suddenly told me she'll be leaving at 10 AM).
I told my instructor this and she assigned me a new patient.
I was able to establish rapport with them (the patient and her significant other) after a while because there were a lot of questions asked first. But then, they were accomodating after I already asked questions that were much personal (because it is needed for our output).
My first error: in the TPR (Temperature-Pulse-Respiratory) sheet, I was able to plot all the information correctly until I reached the urine output. Ma'am was dictating the information she read from my notebook and said my patient's urine output is 500 cc/IFC. So I wrote it under the 10AM shift and when I checked my notebook, it was 570! I had to erase it and when she checked it before returning it to the chart, she said that she didn't want errors. Okay I admit I should've checked it first before writing it down. So there was my first error. Haha.
In total, it was a good experience. AJA! Back to work. I have to do my journal report.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
* I'm fine... *
I wonder what I'm gonna write about today. Well, the same things happened anyway. I woke up, I ate, I commented on other people's blog, I did my rituals before going to school, I rode the jeep, I arrived in school, I had my Physical Assessment exam, I had to wait for my turn before I did my Physical Assessment Return demonstration, I went home, and now I'm typing these words. (Of course, the other activities such as riding a jitney back home was excluded ehehe)
Being a nosy person, I was able to persuade some of my friends who had arguments to reconcile. Hopefully, even though they wouldn't be like before, they would remain as friends.
So there, one good accomplishment for today.
I'm not proud of my score in my physical assessment RD. It was quite low because my classmates just pushed me to go first after I taught and quoted them on what to check on a specific area, their normals and deviations. Damn it. They thought I was going to do it perfectly but I did not because when my professor kept on interrupting me, I forgot a lot of things! I forgot where the proper lymph nodes were located and even the self breast examination.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
* Goodbye.. *
Last night, I made a big decision. I don't know if I made it out of desperation or what, I just decided to cut all my communication medium with Him. It's useless anyway, even though we've been friends for four years, friends do not ignore each other. He could've told me to bug off rather than keeping quiet for a long time.I was trying to reach him the whole Sunday afternoon until he finally answered his phone. And when he did, he just kept quiet while I kept on blabbering his name asking him to talk. Until I've had enough and sent him a text message saying you know, I'm mad and all. I'm expecting him to reply but unfortunately, he didn't.
Like what Lime said last night, "the first to show affection will always be the one to be dragged around" and "you should not show your weakness to him cos he could take advantage of it". Of all the people I've asked, it's Lime who made sense. When I asked for a suggestion of what to do about it, he told me that it is I who should decide, that I shouldn't let others decide for me. Okay, so he was really an expert with this things.
So I've made my decision, I'm cutting all of my communication mediums with Him.
I don't have to carry this burden every now and then, I get it. We've all got our lives to bother with. This is the only way to move on.
"There are two options why he kept quiet, he may be speechless because of some situations that are stopping him from saying so OR he doesn't really care anymore Gem.. After you made those calls, if he really is your friend, why wouldn't he even bother? And remember, one call is ENOUGH. Twice is already too much.." - Toni (Lime)
Thursday, May 1, 2008
-Phyllis Diller
Why the hell did *Lime's friend give out my YM I.D to a guy named Charles? I'm so annoyed really. And then he kept on asking for my friendster address. Why would I give it out if I don't even know him personally? So there, I argued with Lime telling him that his friend Charles is pestering me. He just told me to ignore him but Charles kept on buzzing me until I finally told him to stop annoying me and miraculously, he did. I wonder what Lime told him wahaha.
But anyway, last Sunday was the last night of lamay of my Uncle Iping. My brother Stephen, Ismaelle, Bert and I slept there together with our parents. There were a lot of relatives and friends and so we decided not to sleep. Oh we were really up because they kept on giving us food (I could still remember the food: pretzels, peanuts, Piatos, chocolate and loaf) until we finally gave up and slept at 3Am. God, I wasn't comfortable sleeping in the balcony, it was my first time. I slept in the sofa of their balcony as well as Bert and Ismael. Luckily, di kami nagkasipon. Monday came, my Uncle Iping was laid to rest. It was the first time we had a family gathering again. I saw a lot of our relatives (mga first time pumunta doon) and as usual a lot of unknown people para makikain.
Tuesday, we had to come back to Baguio. I did nothing the whole day except watch Romantic Princess and I finished it last night. Well, as usual, the ending is bitin. ;]